THoughts Insights

2008-06-09T12:50:00.002+08:00

8th June’08

Woke up 6:50am(nv woke up so early in sg..hoho =X), set out at around 8am to Fremantle. Walked a dist to the Stirling Station. Paid 3.40( 2zones) to Fremantle station. Walked passed 2 churches. Spoke to an evangliser who’s mum had cancer and is healed now. Yeap…walked in to the Fremantle market where I bought shades + casing 20 bucks. Then saw some bratwurst and some French & Mexican cuisine. Lots of souvenir shops and decorative home stuff.

Headed off to Marinetime Museum which entry + submarine fee was 15 bucks. Learning a lot about the history of fishing boats, racing Aussie II, submarines which were used during WWII. Went into the Submarine(HMAS-used in WWII). Walked through the rush escape compartment(where they store the torpedoes), the bunk/eating area, engine; motor; battery compartment, passed the pantry, kitchen where 3 ppl would cook for the 70 odd crew for the 10weeks or-so. Senior lounge and followed by the control room where all the periscope etc were. Ohh..yes, the feeling in a submarine is kinda scary and freaky and AND also very crampy; have to always bent through the hatches. Ohh..and the guide told us many many incidents where the submarine collapsed and sink within 12s. And also, how becoz of the super high pressure…the submarine actually shrinks(in width, I think). A simple expt would be that when they are on the surface, they tied a string real tight from one end to another.. and after they sink, you can see that the string loops in the middle. The difference is really obvious which many (or rather I) find it amazing. Ohh..yes..about escaping, its very tedious, cos everytime each person gets out, they have to fill the hole with water and stuff. Which is quite complicated; not easy as it seems.

After which, we headed for lunch at the nearby fishing harbour where seafood is obviously famous. I had BBQ combo for 22.90..lots of squid and their heads, a few scallops which are very fresh, a stick of fish kebab and Italian dressing to go with the salad. Love the chunks of tomatos. Quite satisfying.

Yea, and and finally we headed for the must-go-trip to the Fremantle Prison.- 13.00 Interestingly, we managed to experience how torturous it would be living there.. Oh..we learnt that the prison was infamously known for its fire incident. Visited the kitchen where most prisoners worked, the court where they exercise and the tent where they ate. Visited the gallows too! The space beneath the rope is rather deep where the bodies would be collected. 43 men & a woman were executed there. The last time the execution took place was Oct 1964. Oh, yes. The guide did say that there were cases where innocent ppl were executed too. Sounds really saddening, wheres justice? But..mostly cos framed & prolly some officers there then were corrupted. Yeap, and before it closed..some prisoners were allowed to paint their walls in their cells even they were not supposed to. There were 2 which were really nice. Lastly, we went to the solitary confinement place where the prisoners had to live in the dark(the guide said that you cant even see your hand infront of you) for 21hrs everyday in the oh so small high ceiling double-door room; only during the meals that they allowed lights. We learnt that there are such who were confined for as long as 6yrs.-Which I think the person will go crazy. Its such a torture…

Enjoy the pics...

Yeap, that’s all for today, folks! =]

2008-06-09T12:40:00.001+08:00

This is fremantle Townhall
http://www.fileshack.us/get_file.php?id=321239&file=DSC01252.JPG

2008-03-23T17:09:00.002+08:00

once again

2008-03-23T16:59:00.002+08:00

Jesus Christ, I think upon Your sacrifice
You became nothing
Poured out to death
Many times, I've wondered at your gift of life
I'm in that place once again
I'm in that place once again

And once again I look upon the cross where You died
I'm humbled by Your mercy and I'm broken inside
Once again I thank You,
Once again I pour out my life

Now You are exhalted to the highest place
King of the Heavens, where one day I'll bow
But for now, I'll marvel at Your saving grace
I'm full of praise once again
Oh I'm full of praise once again

And once again I look upon the cross where You died
I'm humbled by Your mercy and I'm broken inside
Once again I thank You
Once again I pour out my life

Thank you for the cross
Thank you for the cross
Thank you for the cross, my friend

And once again I look upon the cross where You died
I'm humbled by Your mercy and I'm broken inside
Once again I thank You
Once again I pour out my life

i called, u answered.

2008-02-09T03:02:00.000+08:00

It feels sucky when everyones in festive mood, and here i am all stressed up and distracted depsite the fact that im home alone. The irony is that I can be optimistic and motivated and in the next min feeling all so pessimistic about things. The load on my shoulder is really heavy and it seems like anytime, i'll just collapse. ITS JUST TOO TORTUROUS!!! I should know that complaining and dwellin in self pity does not help in any way. It is these times that i draw closer to God and know that even the world does not revolve around me, theres YOU up there watching over me. Which all the more makes me cry out loud to HIM and ask HIM for forgiveness(for those times i neglected HIM) and HIS healing touch(both physically and mentally). And so, PAPA GOD, i ask for your strength and wisdom. BRing me out of darkness and help me to see a pinhole of light even its bleak. AMEN.

*dwelling in HIS presence*

Falling on my knees in worship
Giving all I am to seek your face
Lord all I am is yours

My whole life
I place in your hands
God of Mercy
Humbled I bow down
In your presence at your throne

I called you answered
And you came to my rescue and I
Wanna be where you are

In my life be lifted high
In our world be lifted high
In our love be lifted high

listen and believe...

2008-01-26T02:44:00.000+08:00

Another song that really speaks to my heart now.

Oh what I would do to have
The kind of faith it takes to climb out of this boat I'm in
On to the crashing waves

To step out of my comfort zone
Into the realm of the unknown where Jesus is And
He's holding out His hand

But the waves are calling out my name and they laugh at me
Reminding me of all the times I've tried before and failed
The waves they keep on telling me
Time and time again, "Boy, You'll never win!"
"You'll never win!"

But the Voice of Truth tells me a different story
The Voice of Truth says, "Do not be afraid!"
And the Voice of Truth says, "This is for My glory"
Out of all the voices calling out to me
I will choose to listen and believe
The Voice of Truth

Oh what I would do to have
The kind of strength it takes to stand before a giant
With just a sling and a stone
Surrounded by the sound of a thousand warriors
Shaking in their armor
Wishing they'd have had the strength to stand
But the giant's calling out my name and he laughs at me
Reminding me of all the times I've tried before and failed
The giant keeps on telling me
Time and time again, "Boy, You'll never win!"
"You'll never win!"

But the Voice of Truth tells me a different story
The Voice of Truth says, "Do not be afraid!"
And the Voice of Truth says, "This is for My glory"
Out of all the voices calling out to me
I will choose to listen and believe
The Voice of Truth

But the stone was just the right size
To put the giant on the ground
And the waves they don't seem so high
From on top of them lookin' down
I will soar with the wings of eagles
When I stop and listen to the sound of
Jesus Singing over me

But the Voice of Truth tells me a different story
The Voice of Truth says, "Do not be afraid!"
And the Voice of Truth says, "This is for My glory"
Out of all the voices calling out to me(calling out to me)
I will choose to listen and believe(I will choose to listen and believe)
I will choose to listen and believe
The Voice of Truth
I will listen and believe
I will listen and believe
The Voice of Truth
I will listen and believe
Cause Jesus you are the Voice of Truth
And I will listen to you
you are

VOICE OF TRUTH...

2008-01-26T02:08:00.000+08:00

Hi bloggie, im back! =]
its been eons since i last feel like bloggin'.
Can safely say that this week events is memorable in both the up-side and the down-side.
and of course, lessons to be learned from.
hence, memorable and must be noted.

The songs below are encouragement to help me thru the state im in:

RUNNING AFTER YOU.

Your Word is a light unto my path
Your Love guides me through my darkest night
And even though sometimes Your ways
I cannot understand
I’ll never walk away because my future’sIn Your hands

I don’t care what people will say
I’m running after You
I won’t turn back and go their way
Coz I’m running after You
Yeah I’m running after You
I’m running after You(I will run to You)
I don’t care what people will say
I’m running after You
I won’t turn back and go their way
Coz I’m running after You
Don’t matter what may come my way
I’m running after youIt’s You I’m following today
I’m running after You
I’m running after You

MY BEST FRIEND

Have you heard of the One called Saviour?
Have you heard of His perfect love?
Have you heard of the One in Heaven?
Have you heard how He gave His Son?
Well I have found this love and I believe in the Son show me your way

I believe in the one called Saviour
I believe He's the risen one
I believe that I'll live forever
I believe that the King will come
Because I have found this love and I believe in the Son show me your way

Jesus you are my best friend and you will always be nothing will ever change that x2

I believe in the One called Saviour
I believe He's the risen One
I believe that I'll live forever
I believe that the King will come
Because I have found this love and I believe in the Son show me your way

Jesus you are my best friend and you will always be nothing will ever change that
Jesus you are my best friend and you will always be nothing will ever change that
Jesus you are my best friend and you will always be nothing will ever change that

Nothing will ever change that x 6

2007-12-06T11:33:00.000+08:00

[1st verse]
All the colors of the rainbow
All the voices of the wind
Every dream that reaches out
That reaches out to find where love begins
Every word of every story
Every star in every sky
Every corner of creation lives to testify

[chorus]
For as long as i shall live
I will testify to love
I'll be a witness in the silences
When words are not enough
With every breath i takeI will give thanks to God above
For as long as I shall live
I will testify to love

[2nd verse]
From the mountains to the valleys
From the rivers to the sea
Every hand that reaches out
Every hand that reaches out to offer peace
Every simple act of mercy
Every step to kingdom come
All the hope in every heart will speak what love has done

[chorus]
For as long as I shall live
I will testify to love
I'll be a witness in the silences
When words are not enough
With every breath I take
I will give thanks to God above
For as long as I shall live
I will testify to love

i felt lost.
i guessed i needed direction.
this song reminds me well enough why im here for.
thank you papa GOD.
-in the stillness, in the quiet-

2007-06-14T02:53:00.000+08:00

mum's leaving for thailand in a few hours time.
and yes, im back from church camp.
spiritually and physically strengthened, tho we had really late nights.
enjoyed it.
the hotel's really awesome.
like totally grand lo.
its Palace of the Golden horses so ya lots of nice arty figurines of horses arnd.(with no exception with the toilets)
our rm toliets were never bigger than this too.
wells, every year's special.
but, i must say that this yr's not much time of leisure.
cos schedule's fully packed.
somehows, i wished it never ended.
lotsa of stuff that i wna share bt well, the list is endless.
i love all church camps. no matter what.
after all the slacking and fun time, muggin' awaits me.
now that CT is in 2 weeks time, the thought having to LS just spurrs me on to get my revision over and done with.
loads of anxiety within me. gosh.[Dear God, send me ur peace.]

on a lighter note.
there are 2 events to look forward to before paper starts.
planet shakers on fri and "Plunge" on the 22nd. YAYS!!!!
rights. back to work.

2007-06-02T02:22:00.000+08:00

its been a long since i last blogged.
prolly just wasn't in the mood to.
hmms..missed church night cycling today. =(
they're prolly having a great time now.
wells, church camp's in a week time. =]
looking forward to it so much.
sis left for genting this early morning arnd 4am with poly mates.
didnt managed to see her off.she left a note tho. =]
definitely missing her.

words cant desribe the state im in now.
as much as i dunt wna it to be like this.
i pray for a this yr to be life-changing.
God, help me to see not what man sees but see what U see.

2007-04-20T23:57:00.000+08:00

life's been ooookkkkk..
just lazy to blog abt things here. a song kept runnin' at the back of my mind. so decided to pen it down. below's part of the lyrics. for some reason, i chose not to upload the song and put it on my blog.

2007-04-20T23:27:00.000+08:00

i love because you first loved me.
a sinner saved by grace.
you exchanged your blameless life for me, a debt i cant repay
i don't deserve your favour.
still you, love me without measure...
[chorus]
your love is reaching me and i'm responding to it.
i'm holding nothing back, i give you every part.
my soul's being released, your love has captured my heart...

[i figured out the lyrics just by hearing the song,so pardon me for any errors.]

2007-03-22T00:03:00.000+08:00

3C+s.1B+s.2As.gpa-finally hit a 3. =]
yep, my results.
i had great faith.
and i still have.
God is indeed always faithful.
HE is the LIVING GOD.
i thank God i dunt need to repeat org chem-C+. =P
yep.
All PRAise and Glory be unto GOD!
and yes, it gona be like this till i get my dip.
faith's gona work harder,yeah? gambadae!

2007-03-13T00:22:00.000+08:00

-testing testing...-
apparently i have posted 2 entries last week, but somehow they don't appear when im at the website.
seems to me that blogger server did not update it.tho when i hit preview the entries are up.
-testing testing...-

2007-03-09T18:06:00.000+08:00

How did i feel about the papers?
cellBio-60% confident.
orgChem-all hopes on moderation.(realbad)
bioStats-100/100!!!(ishallnotsaymore. =B)
bioChem-memorised lyk mad-80% confident ba.
microBio B-60-70%.

ithankGodforheisalwayssofaithful.

2007-03-09T17:44:00.001+08:00

have been sick for quite awhile.
symptoms showed since 2nd last paper of my exams.
coughing and blowing.-guess everything's have to get out somehow.
man.
and it's really hard on my ears.-blocked
have been waking up at like (what) 2-3pm everyday.
and thks dad for buying home brunches for me.
holidays aren't meant to be like this.-lazy and sluggish.
i dunt wna be sucha parasite,if u shld think so.
man. alrights i shall do smthg about it.promise.

arh, btw have been killin' time watching alot on youtube.
one of which is the hana kimi.-another lian xi jiu.
you must catch it!
every episode is so .......-if u one doesn't mind poor acting(cos the acting sometimes gets to overboard)
hahaaa.wells,the male lead is so nai kan.-reminds me of dao ming shi back to those days when liu xing hua yuan was so pop.
has.how i wish there is sucha man-as in like in the show i mean.lols.
howevers.the ending is like ..... .

2007-02-15T04:13:00.000+08:00

in the midst of writing notes.
stop for a break to have a fruit provided that yor stomach is not empty.
sweet cold mango, just so refreshing to the body.
the tranquility of the night just enhances the atmoshphere making it more conducive to burn.(not the midnight-oil.lols.)
alrights, the notes are callin'.
sweet dreams & slp tight,ppl! =B

2007-02-15T01:10:00.000+08:00

and many days passed.CNY gets closer.
2 bottles of pineapple tarts gone. start-ed on another. (not that i ate all, i admit i contributed much to it.cos im the one who is home most of the time-studying)
no doubt binging on other CNY goodies like nobody's business.(and yes, nobody's..erm,no my mum's actually)
can't help it i need "them" wheneva i study.
also the fridge door is being opened by me like trillion times everyday(thank god it has no mouth-prolly be scolding me alrdy)
i think i can feel my throat getting little sore.
read the ST that s'pore gonna be hotter and drier these few days.
so double your fluid input, everyone!
prep for exams-going fine.(but, erm. need perseverance and more discipline-as usual)
telling myself everyday till first paper starts:"i must CONQUER all the papers. not to stumble and fumble and no more i-should-have-this-this-and-that-that when it's all over."
yeap, and of course living on God's strength and love. :]
yep,so back to my notes once more.

2007-02-11T20:02:00.000+08:00

and so today's an eye opener.
a trip down to a wet market at outram.
with a purpose.-have to buy food for CNY dinners.
all the raw food.
pretty bloody everywhere.
this is for real- i witness a turtle(my mum bought) being slaugthered.
i shall not go into the details.
gross.sickening.
on the other hand, an insight into what u might see when u cut up a body on an operating table.
cos' different ppl have different perspective.-let's not go into the ethnics issue
different ppl have different perspective. so yas.
so needless to say, we had turtle soup for dinner.-mum's try out.
considering whether to cook turtle instead of sharksfin for a change(this yr).
hmmmms..but to sum up my dinner
"yummy".
satisfied. =]

examsexamsexamsexams.
sian-ed.
have to spend CNY studying.
arghs.
LORD, help me to be motivated and stir my spirit to work even harder for the benefit of my future.
Thank you papa God.
Also, COngrats to all who did well for their O's.

2007-02-09T18:05:00.000+08:00

I will sing
Of the mercy of the Lord
And I will shout
Of Your faithfulness oh God
For there is none like You
Seated in Your majesty
Holy One I come
To worship You forevermore
You are my God, my life, my all
And I live for You alone
I am Yours evermore
Heaven and earth "will shout" Your praise
The wonder of Your name
I'll proclaim evermore
Evermore
Evermore
And I will run "(I will run to Your presence)"
Into Your presence
And I will sing "(I will sing of Your love)"
Sing forever

i got B4 for eng o's.-first attempt d7. oweitalltoHIM =]

2007-01-14T01:27:00.000+08:00

and so i'm done with my lab reports.
presentation's over.
howevers, another major proj up next.
makes up 30%.
deadline 2nd feb.
not very near yet time passes fast.
gotta make a webby of my own.
omg! however so, i feel excited somehows.
gota master smthgs abt web design and html and all lo.
everything's so damn new.
talking abt design-im bad at it,honestly. =X
ideas ideas iiiiddeassss needed badly.
erhm.
meanwhile, sourcin' out materials and gettin' my contents and thoughts penned down. yups.

weeks have been really low and meditative.
livingamuchslowerpace.givesmeaspecialspaceformetobreathebetter.

2007-01-10T01:01:00.000+08:00

rainy nights.
just making me think alot.-me dont knw why either.
just wrote my speech for tmr's presentation.
gna meet my grp mates pretty early tmr. like 8am.
i pray that i'll be able to wake up and that all goes well.
erhm. shld be hitting bed soon. ooh no, immediately after this.

troubled.unsure feelings.wordscan'tdescribe.

hearmyprayers.callsouttohimagainandagain.eachtimelouder.

2006-12-30T16:56:00.000+08:00

and oh..all betabloggers, (for ur info) reason for theee cant post is becos ur post is too long. my sis told me the other day. stupid thingy lo.anyhows. just break ur entries into few parts. everything's will be fine.- i try not to space too much too. tho it may looked not as nice. but just make-do huh. =]

coffeeshop nite.
i prefer this coffeeshop nite style tho not really on a high note. very meaningful. really hit my heart.
that's if u did meditate on the words of songs and ppl's testimonies.
they are just so real and happening.- as in it really happens to most arnd teens-youth age.yups.
the food varied. as good as usual.

2006-12-30T16:17:00.001+08:00

on the 28th, met delia.alvin.zhaozhi. in the early afternoon. the rest met us at pasir ris itself. thks guys for waiting for me at city hall. srrys to be so late-as usual. it was a time of seeing the true side of ppl of my class. it's not a bad thing, i would say. cos if i hadn't go, i wouldn't knw who my group mates really are. they are really a bunch of special ppl.special in a way that they so unique. a time really where everyone's being themselves.
durin' the day: eating yek-yek play ps2(alvin brought his)-high rated->the naruto game[they made me hook to the game] thks alvin for guiding me.hahas. if not i wouldn't have won in the few rounds. cos im a ps noob.

2006-12-30T15:36:00.000+08:00

thks karen for catering so much food for us. dinner was good.
then it was exchange of presents. organised by karen.
drew lots and each of us had to open infront of everyone. if im not wrong alvin did took video. pretty funny and exciting. has.
lucas some ppl bought some vodka drinks-whateva names u call it. lots of red lobsters arnd. especially delia, jieying and geng. i sipped here and there just to try. some went high.i shall not mention names.
at night: mahjong(flavia's bf drove it to the chalet cos the rental thingy closed down; thks flavia)-my hot fav. unos poker t-i-T? black jack bluff-pardon me.i knw nuts about poker games and i nv [as in so far] try to get them right. went out for a walk, wanna a break from mahjong. da guys decided to play pool. howevers, tables full. dropped by arcade to play awhile. came back some still playing ps2 others card games. so everyone planned for a movie. death note 1 at arnd 3+ am with some ppl asleep.
next thing, i woke up arnd 7:13am by the mumbling wisphering and the cold.
most had left.
left flavia miki karen lucas zhao zhi alvin.
we booked out arnd 9 plus cos everyone's wna head home. or issit only me? =P
lols. i must say stronger and closer bonds were build-ed durin' that particular night. thks all for making mb0605 so possible and so...unforgettable. *smiles*

2006-12-26T01:10:00.000+08:00

HO HO HO Merry merry merry Christmas to one and all!
Best wishes for the coming yr!
Christmas signifies the birth of JESUS CHRIST.
AND that reminds us the love that GOD gave us.
so we must not take HIS love for granted.
quoted:" for HE first love US, so WE love HIM..and its only right that we do so."
how can we love HIM?
by obeying HIM and sharing/showing HIS love to HIS PPL.
therefore, by recieving HIS love we must give to others.
*snaps*
that's why exchanging of presents came about-for ur info.
-a small little meaning of what christmas really means LOve'

2006-12-22T00:57:00.000+08:00

ya. can say it's big la. but, honestly i feel that there's nthg special about it leh.-i feel aar.. i thought it woould be like woah. coz i read the papers durin' the official opening they talked so much abt how woah it is. but.i just feel that it is no diff from any other malls. just BIG and nice 'outside' design.-spent alot more money and xin shi building it only. lols. after lunch at sakae, huimin and sis came dwn to meet us hopefully to catch a show. saw the 'Q' sab said highly the ticks will be sold out. however deperate we are, we continued on the line. we so wannna watch charlotte's web lo. at the counter the guy told us left 2 seats. other shows some of us watch alrdy. talked and joked abt 5mins plus plus. decided not to watch. wt. felt so bleah. ended up walking to the roof area and taking photos. tings just bought a new hp.- the push-up one. she seems pretty fascinated and took almost anything she saw.-and that includes us. hhmmms..see if i can post up some. it started drizzling and then poured agains. sat dwn at star bucks. and yek-yek-yek alots. =] seems never ending until tings had to go for prayer meeting. had a jolly good time raising up old jokes we used to laugh abt, the many things we used to do together and shared abt some personal stuff. i thank GOD for them. i praise GOD for siew ting as she thru her sharings, shows that she has totally accepted jesus as her GOD and saviour. being a witness, i can really see GOD working in my friend's life. from one whom was toally cold to HIM to one who treasures a relationship with. hopefully thru prayers, tings will used by GOD to bring light to her parents. all these are rather encouraging to me with my walk for with God.

2006-12-22T00:48:00.000+08:00

got back from vivo hours ago. met up with ting ting and sab.-sec sch close mates. was abt an hour late. paisehs. =X all thks to quick and clever ting ting called my hse and my dad picked up.-if not it would be hours late. oops. was awoken by dad: QUICK, wake up!!!! ur friend on the line, she said urgent wors. my reply was: what THING SO URGENT???! i am dreaming, dunt wake me up.-stomping my feet to phone. next thing, OH SHIT! hahas. she went, u just woke up ar? the funny part i found out was that my dad told her i'll let her knw you called when she wakes up. i'll not wake up until 2 plus plus lors.-that's if w/o alarm. lols. no wonders tings said it was urgent. has. a long-waited lunch together with them. and at da the same time chang guan vivo city. u can call me a mountain tort. i dare proudly proclaim that today's my first time there. i not so bad. someone dunt even knw there's a vivo mall lors.-

2006-12-21T00:34:00.000+08:00

like every other yr.
ytrd night was carolling.
as usual everyone was dressed up.
nice and presentable.
had whole lot of fun singing carols ytrd night with da church ppl.
and it all brings me back to the good old sec sch days when i was in the choir. my sch's choir participated in several events.
i can vividly recall the one when we had to stand infront the water fountain to sing carols to the tourists.
this yr first stop was at aunt anne's hse followed by PASTA FRESCA at changi and lastly at zhengqin's hse.
yups. all went fine. =]
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2006-12-13T13:40:00.000+08:00

all is well.
coping well with stress with God's peace and assurance.
took my 3rd paper-org chem a few hrs ago.
one which i particularly spent alot of time on.-prep
2 mores to go before da break for Christmas.-ITL n Micro B
yippeee!
upcoming events:
->carols by candlelight*
->coffeeshop night*
->carolling*
->4S2 bbq
->MB0605 chalet

missed coa's teen/youth camp this yr.
due to test wk on the exact same wk. damn.
tonight is the last night of theee camp.-break camp tmr afternoon
as usual there will be a performance by the various grps plus great dinner sponsored by parents.
shld i go?
if not i'll be missin' the worship and the laughters agains.
heard from jie that Godpa-youth pastor ask me to come knowing that im having my tests.
hmmmpss.
shall see.

2006-12-09T15:23:00.000+08:00

the following post shld be spaced out nicely.
but, right after i spaced.
nthg can be publish.
so better than nthg.
that's why it seems lyk a whole chunk of words.
so ya.
pardon me.

2006-12-09T07:09:00.000+08:00

2006-12-09T06:07:00.000+08:00

apparently i so so so so damn motivated to re-do all my org chem tut properly. thks to leticia. she makes a great chem teacher. she was indeed patient with sucha a student like me. i practically dont' feel the same when i see my tut qns now. i used to be very afraid of those long chem molecular formulas.-coz i didnt knw what they really and i nv seen them before. i dare say that i can work with any foreign org compound now. insights to what im studyin' so u roughly get an idea what im talking abt. org compounds include: alkanes/cycloalkanes,alkenes/cycloalkenes,alcohols,aldehydes and ketones. aromatic compounds-benzene,phenol,ethers. all these kind of compounds together with their alkyl,hydroxyl,carbonyl,ethoxy functional grps. learnt abt their nonmenclature(naming rules), prep and suitable reactions(electrophilic sub./nucleophilic sub./add.) that they undergo. guess my brain expanded after putting all these in. ehhh..yea. and to think abt it. i spent alot time on this module to the extend that even after i hit my pillow im still thinking abt them. ohhh NOs!!! shall stop talking abt them now. alrighty. Good MOORnING, everyones! im so early today. has. a pretty fruitful day to start of with- 9 dec. =] somehows i've yet to feel sleepy-despite being a heavy sleeper. hmmmps. weird. my dad would be sayin that my biological clock went haywired. but, i can absorb best when the clock strikes 12 midnight. rather than sitting at my desk all day and nthg still seemed to go in. rights? gna see what's there in the fridge that i munch on before i continue muggin'. happy outing at sentosa, church ppl! they are gona meet at 9:3oam. im missin' everything agains. anyhows. byeeesssss.

2006-12-06T02:34:00.000+08:00

just finished my org chem report.
and studying/researchin abt 3/4s of biochem lec notes.
needs a break.
and so here i am.
sch's out for tmr.
so tmr would be studyin'.
not sure to study out with my mates or home.
still deciding.
grandma is headin' to kukup for my cousin's wedding(which we are supposed to attend) and mums leavin' for port dickson(for some christian 'workshop') tmr night
and grandpa is left in our hands.
especially his meals.
money given;instructions given.
mum suggested that one of us go over to look after him
we suggest that he come over.
has.
yet to ask him if he wna stay here.
it seems like shes be away for long.
intructions said umpteen times.-my poor ears.
hmms...yas.
so outside food from tmr onwards.
until mon.
still feel sick-ish and stressed.
bleahs =[
slps. nights all.

2006-12-01T19:02:00.000+08:00

hoorays!
finally my lapp's back.
feel relieved.
and yays!
also the blogger in chinese prob has been solved.
=B
praise God!
during the past few weeks reflect and ponder on pretty many things.
i realised that we shld NOT just focus on the downside of bad things.
tho many a times many always say this.
this time round i experienced it.
in the case of my laptop incident.
i was able to spent more time on doin other things just facing the screen all day. able to be flexible(not be too reliant on smthg) and being tolerant depsite of all the inconvenience and worrin'.

another thing i realised was that my laptop is 'clean' now in the sense that the unwanted stuff is deleted.
and the spams are gone.-no more weird and disturbin' pop-ups.
whateva virus is gone too.
and yes, i can go on msn anytime anywhere now that everything's is over and done!
i can get down to real work as in read up more in the net on my modules-a kind of preparation for my tests.-which is coming in 1wk and 2 days time.
wells, got lots to do now that she(my lap) is back.
dl-in' and installin programs...reports and research for proj and tests.
=X

2006-11-27T19:21:00.000+08:00

and so the mission trippers have arrived thailand safely.
sent the team off ytrd afternoon immediately after service.
after which the rest of us together with the older gals headed long awaited meal at popeyes.
the last time i went was a few mths back.
some homed. the others towned.
my sis aand i homed since we had work to do.
got back wasn't early. time:5 plus.
and i went straight into finishin' up my reports.
-

and yes more reports to be handed up this week.
today's test sucked big time.
i STUDIED!!!
qns seemed so foreign.-not seen in tuts
managed to secure a 5marks qn out of 1 5marks and 2 10 marks qns.-total 4long qns.
so yas.has.
as soon as everybody left the room.
everyone went 'die la' and shakes head*
so i guessed everyones gona die together. =x
10% just flew man. ouch!

my lappy still isn't ready for collection.
arghs.
i miss it badly.
my nose still is drippin' terribly since morning.
tell me im not gettin' sick.
byes ppl, gona watch so u think u can dance.
dunt miss it!
their dances real hot and cool. sounds ironical.

2006-11-25T01:19:00.000+08:00

got back from friend hse.
had great dinner and pretty fun time with da gals.
more like a gatherin than a preparation.
managed to link ascension teen and youth bloggy.
check out worship night and photos man.
=]
tmr s Pat's day!
and once again weekend mood ropes in.
*winks*

2006-11-24T01:43:00.000+08:00

exhuasted.
a full day of lessons.
no breaks only breakfast in the mornin after follow-up prac.
this wk is practically pracs everyday except for tmr.(pracs and their respective follow-ups)
coz this wk no e-prac for all the modules.
explains why im tired and my brains are stretched to the max.
which meant shoes and longs for the past 4days.
also means that 4 reports to be handed in next wk.
which is totally bleah.
have to juggle time well.
thks sista for being so cooperative.
coz i will be borrowing her lappy doing up my reports.
about my lappy.
the guy said that my hard disc/disk needs replacement.
unfortunately,disc out of stock. gota wait another few days/2 wks or so.
arghs. planned to use the com lab in sch tmr durin break after the 9am lecture.
coz if not no other time to start my doing my reports.
straight after sch gona go to eve and selene's hse to prepare and cook up dishes for Pat's day-this coming sat. it's a surprise for her, celebrating and thanking her for the contribution and time for teen & youth time as she will not be joining us anymore.
btw, she a our youth pastor's wife(a lecturer @ ntu, also my godma hees) for ur info.
the many cells are preparing smthg starting with 'p'.
as the theme is called Pat's day.
yups. hope everything goes well.
and yes, it will.
*yawning* a sign that my head needs my pillow now.
rights. shall stop here then.

to God: thank you for enlightening me this wk especially thru the many things that happened, your strength and encouragement. Lastly, sch mates whom you sent to say the smallest and simplest words of encouragement/complements when they knw nthg of what im going thru. i knw it is you. and only you will not forsake me and i will not waver. so lead me on the road you marked out for me. i promise i will hold onto you tightly.thank you,JESUS.
*sings*
so lead me on and i will go...
so lead me on and i will follow...
so lead me on to where so few have gone...
lead me on......
i will go.. i will go....

2006-11-20T18:57:00.000+08:00

freAKIN' piss!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! full of regrets now.
planned to blog abt worship night on last sat-18 nov
guess i dunt have the mood to now.
using my sis lappy. fustrated that i tripped over my lappy charger and now it has already die-ed o me.
my dad was'nt helping, he wants me to solve my prob and prolly learn smthg from it.
thks ar.unhelpful man.
called up the person,he said i gota boot my lap using recovery cd=everything gone!!!
i broke down right after i hung up.
never felt so regretful.at the same time idiotic.
to think that i will lose all my data/ dl-ed/ songs/ pics/ games/ unable to use msn kills me.
arghhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and my list of websites under favs for sch work and leisure are all goin' to be erased!!!!
**** la.( it's not the f-word, dunt worry)
it’s so annoying!!!!!!
i've yet to tell my sis and mum.
tmr immediately after sch im gona rush to funan to get it repaired and checked( since the person say bringin' it dwn wld be better).
and now i just have to live w/o my lap for another few days/a week before everything goes back to normal.
i really cant wait to install all the programs and put back all my data (from my thumbdrive) , songs, games into place.
this TOTALLY SUCKS BIG TIME!
feel like rewinding the time back 15 mins-which will never happen.
is this a trial or a punishment for not spending suffice time with GOD??? im wonderin'.

2006-11-18T02:37:00.000+08:00

worked on my lab reports till now.
and im still not done.*sians*
cant believe it man.
had been workin on them for the last few hours.
mayb coz wireless probs causing my internet to be disconnected somehows.
plus gettin stuck at one particularly short qn coz i cant find appropriate ans.
it's really annoyin' when you take so long to research and the net(rather the websites they led me to) doesnt have the ans you're lookin for.
and i can say im pissed & moody now.
and time clocked at 2:35am! *arghs*
felt my nerves arousin my brain to stop working and get to bed asap.
guess i shld shld let my mind rest and finish up tmr.
nights ya'll.
and oh.tmr's Worship Night-coa.*smiles*

2006-11-16T23:22:00.000+08:00

somehows, feel tired after sch.
despite only an hour of lecture and 3 hrs of IT lesson today.
not sure why.
got back home arnd 5plus.
had my bath.
switched on my lappy to surf the net.
met with some probs when going on 'internet explorer'.
*wonders why clicked quick launch of 'IE' but not responding,no windows appear*
strange.
recently encountered this kind of prob.(which is worrying me now)
im praying hard that nthg s wrong with my lap.
coz i hate the process off bringing to service it/cant do my reports conveniently and all.
ya.
see a gleam of hope when i restart it a few times and now im able to blog.=]
now getting my lappy scan for any virus.
all shld be fine. *prays*
yeap. the lap gave me probs and 'unconsciously' my head, on my pillow till dinner. *dont ask me how i got to my bed* lols
had my dinner-supper an hour ago.
and here i am.
yes, and that's my day.
arghs.
not again, fri again.*sians 1/2*
it's gona be lecture lecture lecture and MORE LECTURES tmr.
NOOOOOO!!! *screams*

Posted by Faith's friend, Karen.
Written by Faith.
Same bloggy problem again...helpppp!!!

2006-11-15T14:03:00.000+08:00

decided to blog before i get down to studyin'.
it's a nice feelin' to be home early.
a rather slack day as in not much of lessons.
then again, thought that i shld not just let the day pass without making good use of the time i have.
so rights after this, gotta get stuff into my not-so-big-not-so-small brain.
i hope i wld not end up slping tho im so tempted to. =p
anyhows, this sat will be one to look forward to.(not that i dont look forward to weekends, i DO!!!)
this sat is special coz it's.......WORSHIP NIGHT!
hoOooOORRRAYYS!
keepin' that in mind,
i shall start now.
NOTES, here i come!!!~

2006-11-13T19:21:00.000+08:00

the post below is meant for ytrd's.couldn't post it.(same prob)
gave first lesson a miss coz too tired and the weather was really cool and cosy till i found it 10x harder to leave my bed.
so decided to slp on and be in time for prac at 2pm.
on my way to sch my tut teacher saw me.*shoots*
like what the heck lo. suay suay met him.
he recognised me, i simply smiled at him.
-
Nov,12.

was church and comfirmation service today.
my sis got confirmed.-i was confirmed last yr ,btw.
a whole new experience.
this was particularly different from the past confirmations.
the bishop was indeed a messenger/servant of God.
in the past the bishop(at least for mine) prayed a fixed prayer for all candidates.
however, todays had an additional affirmation personally spoken from God to each of the candidates.
listening to the bishop adminstering and affirming them thru God's words was amazing and sensational.
every individual had a touching affirmation.-it was definitely the work of the holy spirit.
i almost teared while waiting to capture some shots of my sis as i went upclose near the altar.
God's presence was heavily felt then.
quite a number got slained(not sure the spelling) down.

practically for everyone, there were words of comfort in one way or another from our BIg Papa in heaven.
from those words spoken to them, clearly showed God has all to provide our needs be it physically or emotionally, and that he knows how we really feel of ourselves and the life we live.
HIS comforting words heals our hurts and releases us from anything that holds us back from drawing closer to him.
and 2ndly, HIS words never fails to encourage us to live on and stand firm on HIS word.

Congrats to jie and all who were confirmed today! to all candidates: Don't be disheartened as you have been set free by God and take heart the words God spoke to you.

had an supposedly to be a surprised birthday celeb for my sis.
anyways, celebrated at fish & co with the church members. so dinner was settled. the church members & with cooperation of the staff managed to get my sis doing crazy stuff.haha.it was fun la.seeing her being embarrased. *shoots* -i hope she does'nt see this.has. yea.
thks to eve, lynette and lydia for organising. it was joy laughter and lots of entertainment. pretty tiring but eventful day. =]

2006-11-08T17:41:00.000+08:00

pretty full now.*satisfied*
had lunch at sakae at sembawang shopping centre with jie.
ate till the brim of our tummies.
after which we headed straight to the crepes and cream outlet.
my sis wanted it, not me! *exclaims*
hahas. she is treating anyways.
so why not??? =P
ahahaa. thks jie.
she's sucha a fan of ice cream.
nthg can hold her back lo.
anyhows, i enjoyed the mango mania and the crazy berry.

oohh.i think we did over-spend.
sakae-54 and crepes and cream-8
a total of 62 bucks just on lunch alone.
gosh!
wells, once in awhile pamper ourselves does'nt mean any harm rights?
lols.=P

talking abt it, i cant wait to patronise the marmalade pantry.
not to forget billy bombers.-the fries/cheese is just surdup!
hahaa, im feelin hungry once again. *giggles*

coming back, i wna thank GOD for seeing me thru' my eng o's paper this morning.
am over and done with.
feels so much lighter and relieved.
guess all i can do now is to leave everything into HIS hands.
i did my best and played my part.
purely holding onto the faith HE has given me.
.trusting in HIM is all it takes.

2006-11-06T16:10:00.000+08:00

yays! can blog at sch.
lols.
does it mean i have to bring my lappy to sch wheneva i wnna blog???
huh...
=/

2006-11-06T15:53:00.000+08:00

at macs in my sch.
trying out the wireless here.
connection to e-learning ONLY is real fast man.
however, most sites i wna visit cant access.=(
just have to make-do with then.what other choice have i???

as stated earlier.
somehow home server got probs posting entries.
got my friend to help me. thks karen. =]
ehhh ya.
done with doing all my reports for the wk.
didnt waste my precious time-slacking.
my timetable really sucks lo.
no idea why everytime e-prac.
then kinda discourage ppl to go for lecture(in one way).
if not that i have to go to my aunt's hse, i wld be at home alrdy.
lols. most of my mates are'nt goin anyways.
actually e-prac is not as easy as it may seem.
coz reports are still needed to be done.
more researching is necessary too.
which totally sucks when u cant find the answers.

wells, just waiting for time to PASS AGAIN till lect starts.
darn it.
at least i have an accompanion-my lap.
hahas.

As promised

2006-11-03T19:58:00.000+08:00

As promised.here it is!!! lectures today *thumbs down* another load of new info still processing in my mind. freaking out coz lots of catchin' up needed and e-tut and reports to be done by this wk. not to mention my retaking of eng o's is in another few days time.*groans* Dear God, grant me my heart's desire. i dunt want to repeat it anymore.
-

had prayer meeting at church just now after dinner with lynette jas jie. made me ponder on somethings. aand here i am. LORD, forgive me of my sins. i repent so that u can use me efficiently for your kingdom. not now but soon. we lift worship night on 18 Nov into your might hands. may your spirit work in us and thru us to your ppl. thank you, heavenly Father.

pouring it out. it has been with me for a very long time. being lonely and accompanion-less is always inevitable. nevertheless i hate the feeling. my heart crys out for close open friend/friends who is willing to stand by me and to do things with physically. someone whom i can confide in and also to care and show GoD's love to. its not that I dunt have any friends in sch. just feel that the ppl im with dunt really are my kind. and thus cant do the things I enjoy with them. and all we just talk abt is merely on the surface. i find a sense of emptiness.(that's sad actually, and i end up thinking and feeling all this when in the mist of being with them) smthg is just missing. that I dunt feel zhi zai.

somehow, its just so different from sec sch days. the close friends i've drifted away,parhaps, coz they are no longer in the same sch as me.
i miss the feeling of being loved the joy the madness.
seriously.
tho i knw nthg is more impt that having jesus as our friend and counsellor.
coz spiritually HE is theee closest friend.
the one who knws us inside out.
Father, hear my cry.
i will wait patiently.
in your time...

-posted by Faith's friend, Karen.
-Written by Faith
(cus she has yet to solve the problem of blogging at home. Help someone? Thanks!)

2006-11-03T05:15:00.000+08:00

so here i am in the new cafe in my sch lib.
pretty nice environment to chill and slack.
while waiting for time to pass till lesson.
decided to try out bloggin here.
coz ytrd i typed a whole lot of of thoughts but smthg wrong with my lappy.
just too bad that i didnt save it in my thumb.
i really like blogging here.
despite the chattering disrupting my train of thoughts.
nevertheless i still able to speak my mind out.
wells, will be posting up yrtd' s entry when i get back home.
bye ppl.
off to lab work.

2006-10-31T22:45:00.000+08:00

got back home from sch late as usual.
still pissed with this blogger home in chinese wheneva im here to blog.
*screams help* anyone???

shall not let this ruin my mood now.
would like to share the joy and thoughts here.
tho it may seem nthg to anyone that read this.
anyhows,today is the most fruitful day of all ever since sec sch ended for at least i felt that it is. hahas.
no. 1->cleared my org chem doubts for the previous lectures.
thks to zhaozhi and alvin.*claps*
i must say that org chem is so much tougher/different from sec sch.
lots of 3-D visualisation needed for at least the topic that im struggling with at present.
electron orbitals; working with dumb-bell-like shapes and weird never-heard-before bonds.
to make it worst,the lecturer that s teaching this module is a chi-na man.
can barely understand his wordsever since first. eg. energy->en-nerch *whole theatre repeats after him*lols.
as for long words lyk long definations eg.hybridisation he starts off loud and clear then mumbles fumbles and stumbles till the end.
most of the time we are guessing what he says.
like what the heck la.

no.2-> ever since sec sch days, i didnt laugh and felt as high as i used to back then.
everyones with me just so high and mad la.
all thks to me and the jokes. tee-hee

and yea. today brought me back to who im really was/am.guess the environment and the atmosphere arnd was simply just comfortable to bring the inside out of me. *cheers to this day*

thank U, BIG PAPA in heaven.
i love u once more. =]

haze...

2006-10-22T21:53:00.000+08:00

one interesting fact abt the haze.
so decided to share it with u guys. =p
since it's such an issue now in spore.
conclusion:haze is actually good for women(in a way).
our lecturer told ur this:
all living things have hormones in them.
so do plants!
what happens is that when trees burn in indonesia
they give out this hormone called phyto-estrogen
knwing that estrogen is female hormone
and when we humans breathe in this our chest grows bigger.
so yars. guys, u shld knw what to do to avoid any disorder.
it is true and there are cases says lecturer.
as for girls do breathe in more!!! hahaas..unless...

what's suup??

2006-10-22T17:27:00.000+08:00

hello ppl. recently felt the urge to blog.hahaaa.which is good.
don't u think so? shows that im trying not be lazy.
had a good 2hrs of cycling (on my aunt's bike-tho abit lau pok;but better than nthg;in future it s mine.=p she is going back to aussie soon lyk in 1 wk time; will miss her & cousin) ytrd morning arnd my estate.im glad that the sembawang council is building more facilities for the residents here. coz there a big plot of land and they are building a stadium/some courts/park. which is another good thing. woke up early (an exception of all the other sats..tee-hee) by my mum's voice.(as usual, i dunt need an alarm clock;i need her!!!haha) didnt regret waking up early. ha's.. after which went over to my grandma's hse for lunch and head off for teens & youth time. captain's ball was fun as usual. =) sweated off much the of mths wks hrs of EATING & BINGEING! felt so energised.

todays worship was totally whoohoo..once again felt refreshed by HIS touch and love.
Holy is the LORD GOD almighty
the earth is filled with HIS glory
*sings*

gruntings and complains (letting it all out)

2006-10-17T23:07:00.000+08:00

have not blog for aeons. partly lazy and also becoz somehow my blogger webpage on my lappy is in chinese. cant changed it (attempted). can anyone help me out here (that's if u do knw). urgh.actually my blogskin is still 'under construction'. got one of my primary sch friend to do it up for me. wells, thought that i would blog then. guess it gona take quite some time.so ya.

2 days of sch have just passed. and learnt nthg substanstial so far. i it is kinda of a bad start for sem 2, somehow find that the lecturers are not prepared. woke up early for sch to realise that prac is cancelled. and we were NOT INFORM. only 2 hrs of lecture for today. nthg much.timetable really SUCKS big time! urgh. so many long hours of breaks. nthg but slacking. just feel so restless.and pracs for mon to thurs. followed by straight 6hrs of lectures (with 1hr break in the middle) on fris. practically ending sch at 6pm everyday. feels totally sucky.grouchy.e.

the meaning of life.

2006-03-26T15:46:00.000+08:00

What's life???

Life is an opportunity, benefit from it.
Life is beauty, admire it.
Life is a relationship, cherish it.
Life is a bliss, taste it.
Life is a dream, realise it.
Life is a challenge, meet it.
Life is a duty, complete it.
Life is a game, play it.
Life is a promise, fulfill it.
Life is a sorrow, overcome it.
Life is a song, sing it.
Life is a struggle, accept it.
Life is a tragedy, confront it.
Life is a adventure, dare it.
Life is luck, make it.
Life is too precious, dunt destroy it.
Life is life, fight it.
-Mother Teresa.

Life is a gift from God, treasure it.
I found it very meaningful.Taken from an email i recieved.This is for all who sees this.I find it a kind of reminder.Hopefully the words speaks to you in one way or another.

all praise and honour yours.

2006-02-11T14:36:00.000+08:00

THANK YOU HEAVENLY FATHER!!!
YOU are indeed awesome.
thank YOU for working in my life.
indeed miracles just happen with prayers.
simply LOVE HIM!
All praise and honour are Yours!

i'm quite happy with my results as compared to my prelims.
a great jump for me. [ from 36 to 20]
however, disappointed with my eng.
it cost me lots of marks, if not i could have done even better.
most probably retaking.
wanna also thank all who prayed for me before and after O's.
Love everyone.
just feel over the moon.
la la la la.....
hahaas. =P

here are my results:
english-D7
chinese-B3
combined humanities-B3(unbelievable)
emath-A1
amath-B3 (unbelievable)
Physics-B3 (unbelievable)
Chem-C5
L1R5-20
L1R4-17

serve

2006-01-28T12:05:00.000+08:00

it's has been a long time since i actually really blogged.
dead tired from the serve programme from mons to fris.
have been all out everyday.
today feeling bleah.- sick
actually sick since lyk ytrd- sneezing all day.
didnt go. decided to stay home and rest.
my body aches wheneva i've not rested enough.
i guess i really need this day off.
slept until lyk 2pm.
oooh. servers having steamboat nw.
argh! missin' the fun and FOOD!
howeva, the thought that i must get well b4 chinese new yr.
so that i can eat all new yr goodies.
makes me feel that i made the right decision.
also wanna THANK my grp servers for their care and concern this few days.
SErvers, enjoy your reunion dinner!

With all i am

2006-01-06T10:02:00.000+08:00

Into your hand
I commit again
With all I am
For you LORD
You hold my world
In the palm of your hand
And I am yours forever

CHORUS
Jesus I believe in you
Jesus I belong to you
You're the reason that I live
The reason that I sing
With all I am

I'll walk with you
Wherever you go
Through the tears and joy
I'll trust in you

And I will live
In all of your ways and
Your promises forever

CHORUS

I will worship you
I will worship forever

CHORUS

Christmassy.

2005-12-28T09:59:00.000+08:00

How quick could that be.
this yr is coming to an end.
so has christmas.
christmas this yr is special and different from the past few yrs.
I recieved smthg from our heavenly father.
smthg especially dear to me.
aniwaes, lets all rejoice for the SAVIOUR is BORN!
JESUS CHRIST!!!
also, wanna wish everyone A MERRY MERRY Christmassy once again.
=P.
simply love HIM.

song

2005-12-05T22:12:00.000+08:00

Blessed be Your name
In the land that is plentiful
Where Your streams of abundance flow
Blessed be Your name
And blessed be Your name
When I'm found in the desert place
Though I walk through the wilderness
Blessed be your name

Chorus:
Every blessing You pour out I'll
Turn back to praise
And when the darkness closes in, Lord
Still I will say
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name

Blessed be Your name
When the sun's shining down on me
When the world's "all as it should be"
Blessed be You name
And blessed be Your name
On the road marked with suffering
Though there's pain in the offering
Blessed be Your name

Chorus
You give and take away
You give and take away
My heart will choose to say
Lord, blessed be Your name
I will bless Your name

Chorus
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name

You give and take away
You give and take away
My heart will choose to say
Lord, blessed be Your name
*Repeat*

PRAISE THE LORD!!!

2005-11-19T17:38:00.000+08:00

PRAISE HIM!!!
finally all is over.
nw,the only thing i can do is to TRUST HIM!
wells, though some papers lyk my physics, amth and others were not gd.
bt, i still trust tt i will miraculously do well.[ for nthg is impossibe with GOD.]
also want to THANK HIM for his guidance and peace within during the papers.
HE was indeed a wonderful PARTNER.
it's just so amazing how GOD works before my very eyes.
nv in my sec sch life have i have the time to check my answers.
this exam was much more different.
unlike my sch exams when i just have enough time to write finish my last word.
quite happy for my emath.having high hopes for it.hees.
it was much easier as compared to prelims and other schs' papers.
aniwaes not too high expectations.
leaving all into God's Hands.
just feel so relieved and free nw!
HoORAY!!!! Yeeeepppppeeeee!

oh yes,wanna share abt how God kept me going.
all was to do with purely strengthening of my faith in HIM.
and it is this song tt drew me closer HIM.

All for love the Father gave
For only love could make a way
All for love the heavens cried
For love was crucified

Oh how many times have I broken Your heart
But still You forgive
If only I ask
And how many times have You heard me pray
Draw near to me

Everything I need is You
My beginning, my forever
Everything I need is You

Let me sing all for love
I will join the angels song
Ever holy is the Lord
King of GloryKing of all

All for a love a Saviour prayed
Abba Father have Your way
Though they know not what they do
Let the Cross draw man to You

2005-10-29T09:30:00.000+08:00

harlowz.

2005-10-22T15:24:00.000+08:00

hey heyz people!!! =)
back back.
felt the urge tt i must blog for today.
lol. today is my sch grad. day for da SEC 4s!!!
yeah yeah!
graduated le.
the grad ceremony commenced.
everyone felt so honoured and thought abt what we did to get this far.
everyone had at least 10s of "fame".
walking up stage to get da scroll [empty..cheated our feelings].
aniwaes, the feelings and experience is undescribable.
after which we were led dwn in a pathway where ur juniors surrounded us.
i would tink tt everyone felt very warm and touched by it.
at least it did for me.
wells, after all the formal stuff.
took class photo. [will be up online soon]
and went arnd the whole sch for frens[ juniors included], teachers signature.
realli fell in love with my pe shirt. [will be posting a photo of it soon.hehe]
yepp. time really flies.
no turning back the clock for sweet and sour memories in my sch.

for nw.
wells, will be focussing on my preparation.
no more distractions for me.
a few wks of torture only.
lots of work to do improve manz.
Wish all taking o's ALL THE BEST! =p
DON'T GIVE UP, guys!
our sch's motto: ONWARD & PERSEVERE!!~
bear this in mind:3 wks of hard work can do wonders....

Becoz u live

2005-09-20T15:40:00.000+08:00

Becoz' YOU LivE.

Staring out at the rain with a heavy heart
It's the end of the world in my mind
Then your voice pulls me back
Like a wake-up call

I've been looking for the answer
Somewhere
I couldn't see that it was right there
But now I know, what I didn't know

[Chorus]
Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself
When nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has twice as many stars in the sky

It's all right, I survived, I'm alive again
Cause of you, made it through every storm
What is life, what's the use
If you're killing time

I'm so glad I found an angel
Someone who was there when all my hopes fell
I wanna fly, looking in your eyes

[Chorus]
Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself
When nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has twice as many stars in the sky

Because you live, I live

Because you live, there's a reason why
I carry on when I lose the fight
I want to give what you've given me
Always

[Chorus]
Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself
When nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has twice as many stars in the sky

Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself
When nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has everything I need to survive
Because you live, I live, I live

Prelims.

2005-09-17T11:43:00.000+08:00

harloe everyone!
back from 1 week of exams.
finally this week is ending.
it's a kinda of a gd thing.
always love fridays.
gees. =p
a few things happened during the week.

firstly.
this the 1st week of my PRELIMS!!!
how things went???
not a very gd start, i wld say.
on the day of my 1st paper.
i was havin' my emath paper 1.
brought everything except for compass.
bad bad.
panick sei.
was as worried then.
only when the teacher told me tt borrowing was'nt allowed.
honestly, i was'nt aware.
fine.
so i lost 5marks just lyk tt.

hist was'nt gd too.
i'm not confident.
co'z i studied/ memorised the chapts didnt came out as seq.
so when i got the paper, was stunned when i read the seq qns.
decided to do the sbq first ( usually i do seq first)
nevertheless, i managed to recall the other chapt( didnt memorise) tt i read thru'.
so did qn on China in the end.
hopefully can at least pass the qns.
it was thru' God's grace & guidance.
wanna thank HIM for that. =)

chem prac.
guess i wasn't used to the environment.
the pressure.
the time.
and all.
gota be used to it.
tink i'm lacking practice.
co'z usually when we do chem prac.
firstly.
we take our own sweet time & seldom complete it by ourselves.( end up copying)
secondly.
we worked in pairs wheneva durin' practicals
i gota be quick & watch my time.
yeah.
bt, in the end completed the experiments.
managed to find barium as the unknown for titration.
so relieved.
today's math paper 2 was okay.
luckily the paper was'nt out to kill us.
teachers are not so bad aftera'll.

i have been thinking.
this week i have been put thru' alot of tests..
God's testing me in every way, i gueesssss.
Bt, i cant deny my FAITH have grew stronger this week.
they are just merely taking exams, many might say.
bt, the feelings tt i experienced this week has impacted in a every small little way.
it has boost my confidence & my self esteem.
even though i have difficulties when i doing the papers, i have a strong sense that i can do well.
i shall see what happens.
can sense tt God's working in my life.
I LOVE PAPA GoD!
God's so awesome.

PRAISE HIM!

2005-09-05T13:10:00.000+08:00

PRAISE HIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!
double BLESSINGS from JesuS.
lost my card holder today after church.
felt realli lost then.
tinking abt the last time when i lost my wallet & everything.
felt bleah.
then i prayed realli hard.
spent abt 3hrs looking & checking with the bus officers if found.
thought the times when i lived w/o my ez-link card. was bad.
and i did not want to pay another 20 bucks 4 another card as replacement.
in the end.
managed to search almost every 142 bus.
on the third bus THANK GOD, i found it!!!
yep.guess GoD was testing my FAITH.
hhmmm.
oooh.
i bought a new phone with cam today!
yays!!! =p
so bless.
blessed totally. =)

weeeeeeee

2005-09-03T12:40:00.000+08:00

WEEEEEEeeeeeeeeeee!!!!
am super happi today. *smiles*
2 subject prelim papers are dwn.
yays!
have a fun time chattin' online today!!!
talked too many ppl i having been to.
catch up things with them.
especially ultra over the moon.
lol.
da feelin' is so special tt words can't describe it all.
aniwaes, yarz.
EEEEXXXXXXTRRRREMMMEEEELLLLLY HAPPY!!!
lol. playing this fav. song of mine.
hope tt anyone doesn't get bored of the song (coz i never did).
=)
my blog presents to you Cry- Mandy MOore.

feelin great.

2005-08-27T08:44:00.000+08:00

hi'yall.
i'm back again.
the feeling is GREAT!
4 those who dunt knw i haven been well & did attend sch for abt 1 wk.
rather i did not go out for abt 1 wk.
missed everyone.
today i recieved a quite warm welcome back.
juzz came back from a game of basketball with xinyi huiying iz.
was rather a gd game.
'coz managed to sweat it all out.
yay! i'm active again.
quite tired nw.
my muscles are achin especially my arms.
lol.haven been tt active for quite some time.
had a wonderful time today! =)

bleah.

2005-08-14T09:52:00.000+08:00

felt bleah on thurs.
had so much stuff to do.
carol realli "thks" for tellin me tt.
sort of quite affected by it.
bt, thought for quite awhile.
realised it did not make much of diff.
aniwaes ppl have to get on with their lives.
cant possibly wait for smthg tt is impossible to happen.
aso thks to some of my classmates for callin me cleopatra[egyptian queen].
aniwaes i was with my "new hair".
for your info. i kinda of rebonded my hair.
all i wanted was to neaten (if there's such a word) up my hair (behind my head). so tt i do not need to go thru the haste of making my hair every morn.
so yarz.
decided to go with my mum's suggestion.
the hair-stylist did a rather good job.
he was very consciencious.
aniwaes my mum gave him 2 bucks for tips.
yeah.liked his fu wu.

didnt go sch yrtd.
not feelin' well.
chinese o's results out.
there i was anxious worried and all.
bt, could do nothing.
juzz had to wait patiently.
the feelin' was so sucky.
aniwaes my ma managed to call the sch.
so got my results.
got a B3.
shld i say it was GREAT?
or juzz okay?
i dunt knw.
guess juzz felt neutral when my mum broke the news to me.
den chatted with chermaine.
sort of felt tt my classmates were happi 4 me.
realised tt i did fairly well. *pats*
as she was telling me my classmates results.
coz i used to do worse (get C5)than them and nw...
okok.
will not compare and comment further.
guess im juzz satisfied with it.
have to thank GoD for that. :)

went tuition as usual.
got back home later than usual.
then couldn't play basketball with iz & the guys.
sorries.
yepp, and nw here i am.
infront of my sis's lap. bloggin'.
tt's all. :p

2005-08-06T12:28:00.000+08:00

Hellloooo ppl. haven been bloggin' since the past few wks.update on wad im goin thru'. Firstly wanna thank God 4 his guidance & endurance thru the test wk which was last wk. Although i flung my chem, i felt tt i learnt alot durin corrections guess tt day had hist too so studied more on hist.OOhhh..yarz..for hist did above ave. *smiles* yeah...shan't be complacent. working hard towards prelims & os. Have been going tuition very frequently lately. Learning alot since.Begining to sort of regaining my love 4 math.yeah.ooh...talking abt tests...did well 4 my probability test. expected it to be 100% bt, careless.gees. cant be overconfident sia...juzz bai bai song fen gei lao shi.haiz.aniwaes, tt's not impt in doin' well in these tests. i juzz pray tt i will be fully prepared for my prelims.

oooh...smthg juzz struck mi juzz nw while having my dinner.i wanna thk God 4 my loving & caring grandparents & my pa ma too!!! They always worry tt i have no food to eat. Come to think of it, my grandma always brings food over every night w/o fail. She is always arnd to accompany mi whenever i alone late in the night & im greatly grateful to her for tt. Today, she te di make chicken ffet soup for mi.-she knows it's my fav.Thks ah mah-i love u. Juzz cant imagine the days when she is gone. I also want to thk God for her & will continue to pray 4 her health & strength tt carries her thru' everyday. im so fortunate. =p LOVE HIM! His love for us; cruxified on the cross 4 our sins; his blood tt covers us from all evil [Satan]. HE did all for the sake of us.
- "Draw me close, in ur arms ohh God i wanna be with YOU... " juzz so excited, going fest. of praise tmr. yahOOOO!!!- yearning to feel his presence.Guess i realli need to draw close to him once again. Can't deny tt i hav drifted away frm him.So i decided to set aside time 4 HIM & tmr shall be it.

Always

2005-07-17T09:24:00.000+08:00

Did You rise the sun for me?
Or paint a million stars that I might
Know Your majesty?
Is Your voice upon the wind?
Is everything I've known marked
With my maker's fingerprints?

Breathe on me
Let me see Your face
Ever I will seek You

Chorus:
'Cause all You are, is all I want, always
Draw me close in Your arms
Oh God, I wanna be with You

Can I feel You in the rain?
Abandon all I am to have You
Capture me again
Let the earth resound with praise
Can You hear as all creation lives
To glorify one name?

sad.

2005-07-06T10:39:00.000+08:00

hi everyone. it's been long tt i blog. haven hav the time to blog actually. seldom online liao, coz im cant waste too much time online. This few days got alot of hw & tests as usual. haven been slping well too. Not enough rest sia. Gotta discipline myself. 5 more mths den can relax le. I pray tt 4 God's strength, preseverance & endurance. oohya...having my o lvl chinese oral this friday, rather nervous. aniwaes all the BeST to those having the oral!!! love u always. Keep smiling! God BlesS everyone! =)

my tots

2005-06-20T09:49:00.000+08:00

today...juz felt lyk bloggin'....my thoughts for today...i chose tis song will be relevant to what i want to say...i believe strongly in miracles...although i haven witness 1 yet...my faith in GoD grows as i strongly believe in it...therefore, i believe tt tis song will come thru'...miracles will happen in my life...my studies & my personal problems [god knws wad im sayin]...my FAITH & TRUST in HIM will definitely carry mi thru'...i LOVE JESUS!!!

back....

2005-06-16T00:02:00.000+08:00

juzz got back from choir camp....am overly tired out...the games the practices not enough slp & all...hav sort of bonded with the juniors..close relationships especially with my bunk mates...err...encountered several difficulties however our tribe still did not give up...luv them all [my juniors]...the bbq ytrd was quite gd..got mee hoon,chicken wings, hotdogs & marshmellows!!! managed to see our seniors, they came back to SEE us! hees...took some pics 4 memories...oooh..ya..mr chen aso brought da cake he promised us if we got silver 4 SYF...the cake was ver rich & nice....got xl & royston to cut da cake...aso congratulate ms azzah..she juzz got married....we bought her a figurine from precious tots for $89 and presented it to her..tink i realli need a gd rest...my eyes are closin soon...argh..i wanna slp nw! =p

=p

2005-06-12T15:55:00.000+08:00

10/05
ytrd night was at aunt's hse, reached home very tired so didnt feel lyk bloggin..so tt's y im here today...ok let mi start...=p

after choir went to my aunt's hse near sch...was invited by my aunt to help them 'open ceremony' for their karaoke set..hahaa...coz i sing nice mahz...yarz...they knw i choir de...so yarz...was very honoured...had dinner with them...da bao from the coffee shops @ 800 there..had all my fav foods...carrot cakes hokkien mee rojak bbq chicken wings....dinner was all on her [my aunt] ..den my mum bought some packed durians on her way there too..hee hees...

this make mi remb the days when i stayed in yishun...all the nice cheap foods...can say my childhood "delights"...tt's wad i lyk abt livin in yishun...food wise everywhere aso hav...can go anywhere coz got my favs...not sian at all...livin sembawang onli hav sun plaza [ the food not say beri nice..eat long can get sian de..and aso quite ex..] & only a few coffee shops which are quite far away from my hse...

errr...ok...let's not talk abt it...oohya..den went ahead with karaoke...hahahaha...my uncle so funny...coz he scared we sing beri nan ting...so he closed all the windows & doors, on all the aircons...so no1 can hear us from outside...oooh...aso saw the other side of my mum....can say first time see her so siao...hahahahaa...we were realli entertained in a way by her [she is realli 'gd' @ singing]..my cousin & i laugh lyk siao char bos...hahaa...i bet if my dad was there...he will aso laugh...muahahahaa...had a GREAT time with my family members tt day!

sec 1-2 days

2005-06-10T13:02:00.000+08:00

today...went out with sab & st...it's lyk going back to my lower sec days...the very first days of our secondary sch days...time realli flies sia...realised we hav change..from the toot fellows to thee matured ladies,yea?...hees...went towning...actually wanna eat @ pizza hut..hahaha..realised tt there dunt hav..changed le...[ ain't we blur.]ate @ pizza tanglio @ wisma instead...they realli luv the pizza...it was so-so for me...ate tok & joked arnd...den we walk walk along orchard road lorz & Hereen...after tt...it was abt 3++.....den they accompanied mi to outram to change my braces...den met tis strange...so called in a way forced us to donate 5 bucks...so we had no choice coz we had no time to react,he tok so fast sia...so donate lorz...after tt...we went back to town, coz not sure where we wanna go....ended up @ Cinni....took some neoprints there...had alot fun & laughter...it was a wonderful day! [ say cheese =p ]

wheeeee!!!!!

2005-06-05T12:29:00.000+08:00

wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!! YahooO! so happi today...did some shoppin today with my mummy...lyk going out with her...u knw y??? coz she pays everything...everything is on her..hahhaa...mi badie daughter....hees...aso wanna spent time with her larz...yarz...firstly went to cut my hair...den went to buy some tops..got a few op tops...ooh..yarz...coz the pencil case @ op was cheap so bought...hahaha...yea...the feelin' of buying wad i want is so satisfyin...yeah! oohya...my mum also bought some thingys 4 herself too...happi 4 her..=p

Yeah!!!

2005-05-30T07:20:00.000+08:00

Yeah!!! Exams OVER! Chinese O's finally OVER! so relieved....Firstly, wanna Thk GoD 4 his guidance & grace. Luv HIM lotz....managed to get all my han zi right...compre managed to understand however vocab not strong enough so cant ans very well to those qns tt need opinions...yarz...hopefully im accurate...i hope to score 4 paper 2...yea! paper 1...i write so-so onli...managed to use some ci you...tink used abt 3 OR 4 ci you lyk tt...yupz...first time sia...heeded my mum's advice...hees...oohyya..wanna thks my mum 4 preparin'mi 4 today's paper...she massaged mi while i was studyin..hahaa...the person tt keeps mi awake-- givin mi food to eat...hees...thk thks mum once again...

yepp...so over liao...bt, gotta prepare 4 the worst too...coz i dunt want to be overconfident den end up get unexpected results...i dunt want history to repeat itself...yarz..den later gonna feast liao so called celebrate...hahaa...yeah! juzz feel tt i dunt hav any burden liao..no heavy bags..so happi! love EveRy1 including U...keep smilin'... =)

just got back my results..

2005-05-25T07:42:00.000+08:00

past few days didnt feel lyk bloggin'...guess i was merely lazy & tried? ba...hahahaz...hmmm...ummm..yrtd got back my results..was as bad as usual....not up to my expectations yet...target not met...haiz...next major exam shall be my PRELIMS liao...sigh...ok...juzz wanna say tis my eng fail so dunt needa talk abt other subj coz overall fail liao..yarz...den had 2 mock exams 4 our MT...havin' da last one tmr after school...yepp...so will be concentrating on my chinese 4 nw until mon...

sigh...today...something made mi super embarrassed lorz...dunt knw wad to say to her liao....nw im lyk...haiz...the xy horz...she arz-( u gd lor)...dunt knw frm where hear de,so far i onli told 4 ppl...haiz..die liao...aniwae, it happened liao...so cant be taken back...aiya...sometimes just cant help to stop things frm happening...yarz...just got ma lu just lyk tt... =(

2005-05-20T13:32:00.000+08:00

we are sitting on the big round yellow float....alwin fu yuan harold kenneth mei qin sixuan xinyi & mi (clockwise direction)

sentosa...

2005-05-20T12:59:00.000+08:00

got home arnd 8++....quite tired though...was a great day...went sentosa...quite a no.of things happened...so funny...hahaha....it did not start off very well...partly becoz it was raining in the morning...was awoken by xinyi arnd 9...was forced to sia...quite reluctant coz slept late the night b4...so went to change packed my stuff & went to meet xinyi & zhen hua @ yishun mrt station...it was planned tt when we reach harbourfront den meet the rest there...

when we reached there...called esther...they say not going liao coz raining...bt, going to shop shop later...den we were lyk quite dissapointed lorz...bt, we still went ahead to sentosa 4 wadeva reason tt we still go ahead knwing tt the rest of S2 not coming..reached there it was not raining though...3of us sai tai yang awhile...den bored liao...we 3 sian sian de...i look at u,u look at mi...den..........

clever xinyi remb tt S3 aso coming...so she called sixuan...went to meet them at palawan beach...coz initially we were at siloso beach...at first felt extra coz most of them S3 de...den onli 3 of us...there were abt 13 of them....played volleyball with them( using shirley's ball)...we all lan lan de..hahahaha...muahahaha..bt,was quite fun...coz most of da time laughing at each other how we save the ball....so hahahahaa....

after awhile....some strangers...3 guys & 1 gurl said they wanted to play with us...actually reluctant...bt, ened up meiqin, sixuan, fu yuan, alwin, adeline, zhen hua, xinyi & mi played against them....then swop team members...played with them until abt 3++...coz they wanna break...after tt we played 'monkey'...i was 1 of the 'monkey'....tryin' hard to block adel...yarz..coz the strangers was using the net...so yarz...den after tt...decided to play water games...coz we all very hot & dehydrated liao...took some bites...den played smthg lyk water polo...ooh..yah...managed to tuo xinyi xia shui...i told alwin to push her de...hahahaha....sorry xinyi...den she also in the end play with us...yepp...played until arnd 5++...took some picx..by hafiz...den raining liao so decided to get out of water coz high tide coming...so went to bathe lorz...gathered at 7/11 there...waiting 4 "train" to pick us up & rain to stop...while waiting we went to grab bites...coz practically all of us were hungry....hahahahaa....took the "train" arnd 6++....it took us to the stop oustide to take a bus to departure area...den most of us took 855 to yishun interchange...yarz...some slept some chat al the way...yarz...reache interchange arnd 7 lyk tt....yepp....

juzz wanna say tis: all THKS to S3 4 making tis fun day happen! coz my day could juzz be wasted...yarz...also got to knw meiqin & adel better...yepp...tink tt' s all...tt was juzz my day!

passin' by...

2005-05-17T02:17:00.000+08:00

days just pass by...
just waiting for everything to fall over me..i guess [am still waiting for answers]....

haven been to church for quite some time....have been missin' out alot..da friens..da worship..da games on sat...da laughters...haiz..just can't wait for tmr...1 last paper...& then next obstacle will be my chinese's o's..haiz...one after another, just waiting again...AND nothin' cant be worst than missin' my church camp in june...sob sob...shall wait 4 next yr..sigh..tinking so far manz..hahaha..aniwaes 6 more months...den can slack & havoc liaoz...haaha...just pray hard tt i will get gd results 4 o's...hees..i'll be at all cost to make tt happen! yarz....tt's all...just my thoughts 4 today...

the spirit moves

2005-05-16T11:05:00.000+08:00

tHe SpiRit MOveS...

I can feel the Spirit

When it moves down in my soul

As it comes to make me whole

Said I, I can feel the power

As it washes over me,

As it comes to set me free

Said I, I glow

Nothing can ease the healing, nothing can replace the feeling

Said I, I know

It's a real move deep inside, and it's too divine to hide

If you open up your heart, open your mind

If you give it all away, what you would find

Throw your hand in the air and close your eyes

And you can never get enough

Of the love and the power you'll receive

When you fall down and you hit your knees

So amazing what your eyes will see

If you're ready when the Spirit moves

If you open up your heart, open your mind

If you give it all away, what you would find

Throw your hand in the air and close your eyes

And you can never get enough

Of the love and the power you'll receive

When you fall down and you hit your knees

So amazing what your eyes will see

If you're ready when the Spirit moves

(You can't run and you can't hide) No need to try at all

(It'll bring a change inside) When the anointing falls

(Don't need no other high) Can't get no higher, I know

(Don't let it pass you by) Just let the Lord take control

(You can't run and you can't hide) No need to try at all

(It'll bring a change inside) When the anointing falls

(Don't need no other high) Can't get no higher, I know

(Don't let it pass you by) Just let the Lord take control

reminder of God's grace....

2005-05-11T14:10:00.000+08:00

PoWeR oF YouR LOvE

Lord I come to You
Let my heart be changed, renewed
Flowing from the grace
That I found in You.
And Lord I've come to know
The weaknesses I see in me
Will be stripped away
By the power of Your love.

Hold me close
Let Your love surround me
Bring me near
Draw me to Your side.
And as I wait
I'll rise up like the eagle
And I will soar with You
Your Spirit leads me on
In the power of Your love.

Lord unveil my eyes
Let me see You face to face
The knowledge of Your love
As You live in me.
Lord renew my mind
As Your will unfolds in my eyes
In living every day
by the power of Your love.

main exams juzz began..

2005-05-10T06:45:00.000+08:00

main exams juzz began...today's papers was lyk nthg to mi..not meaning tt they were easy...juzz tt i did not take it as seriously as other mid-yrs..dunt knw y...guessed i tot it didnt matter much...o' lvl wld have matter much more...i shldn't hav such attitude..haiz...juzz nt mi..dunt knw y...aniwaes...i tink i tried my very best to ans every qn even though i didnt knw..

God did guide mi thru'...mayb tt's y i was so relaxed..checked my ans with carol's...most were right..yeah! hopefully our ans are right...hees..

ss- SBQ was bad, i tink..dunt even knw wad's the inference & the purpose..haiz..tink ss cant do well liao...aniwaes 2 papers down..lesser burden liao..
juzz leavin' my results into GoD' s hands.. =)

life is ain't gettin' any easier 4 mi...

2005-05-08T11:14:00.000+08:00

life ain't gettin' any easier 4 mi...the pressure...the troubles..the ppl & all...they are all tearin' mi apart..i realli need moral and physical support nw..LOrd, pls give me strength & help mi ignore all my troubles 4 nw and focus on my exams durin' tis crucial period...

studied ss today....going to finish up & do chem later in da night..yepp..tt's all...juzz feelin bored & bleah nw..

Cry

2005-05-06T12:20:00.000+08:00

I'll always remember
It was late afternoon
It lasted forever
And ended so soon(yea)
You were all by yourself
Staring up at a dark gray sky
I was changed

In places no one will find
All your feelings so deep inside (deep inside)
It Was there I realized
That forever was in your eyes
The moment I saw you cry

The moment that I saw you cry

It was late in September
And I've seen you before (and you were)
You were always the cold one
But I was never that sure
You were all by yourself
Staring up at a dark gray sky
I was changed

In places no one will find
All your feelings so deep inside (deep inside)
Was there that I realized
That forever was in your eyes
The moment I saw you cry

I wanted to hold you
I wanted to make it go away
I wanted to know you
I wanted to make your everything, all right....
I'll always remember...
It was late afternoon...
In places no one will find...
In places no one will find
All your feelings so deep inside(forever was in your eyes)
It was now that I realized
That forever was in your eyes
The moment I saw you cry
Baby cry
The moment that I saw you cry
I think I saw you cry
The moment I saw you cry

(Fade out)
I wanted to know you
I wanted to know you
I wanted to know you

02/05/05-04/05/05

2005-05-05T08:54:00.000+08:00

02/05/05
stayed home to study 4 chinese...got new addidas watch...yeah-so happy..my mum went shopping bought 4 mi...hees...very nan de..hahahaaa...aniwaes thks mum!!!

o3/05/05
tink i embarrassed myself 4 stupid things tt i do...tt was not the usual mi...cant blame any1 except myself..haiz...aniwaes, i trouble-free nw..wheee...hope i didnt leave any bad impression on u...bt, it is okay if u do...juzz contented to see u everyday...gotta focus on studies nw...*sigh*

04/05/05
feelin' better tis few days though i still slp late to study...hees...had chinese papers today...it was quite hard...compre didnt understand what is jing ying...izzit jing ying..shld b larz..yarz...so it's lyk the whole passage talking bout it...den juzz copy chunks 4 wadeva reason i thought they are the ans to the qns...aniwaes nw i knw it means elite...then han zi, guess i lost 4 marks 4 stupid careless mistakes...yarz...juzz thk GoD not o's..always use tis to console myself, typical mi...was glad tt i knew all the wan chen ju zi & ju zi...coz i studied..heehee..yarz...hope to score there.. =p

argh!!! i cant be sick durin' exam period...

2005-05-01T03:39:00.000+08:00

hot & humid weather...
feelin bleah nw..sick...
having sorethroat & flu nw..glad tt headache is gone...

advanced exams tis coming wk..
staying home, ytrd did go out @ all...
today didnt go church too..sigh..
mum wanna mi stay home & study too...
juzz miss every1 nw...
especially church friens...
haiz...missing out on everything...
LoRD, i pray tt u will heal mi, keep mi away frm viruses & germs...
pls give mi strength, wisdom & guidiance when i study..
Amen...
wanna Thank God tt tmr is public holiday!

tiring bt a great day...

2005-04-30T13:11:00.000+08:00

juzz gt home abt 2 hrs ago...
had dinner with my classmates...
went home first, tired & abit sick liao...
da rest went to aloy's hse to play bb...
my headache came back again...hav been having headache off & on since wed..
wed...didnt go sch, stayed @ home...
exams coming liao...sigh...
had lessons in da morning...
went to play bb coz had nthg to do..
bathh in sch, b4 going 4 match...
although they lost, it was a tough fight...
i tink they had already worked very hard to get this far le..
so CONGRATS to all da guys in softball B d!

why is tis happening to mi??? LoRD, pls change mi...

2005-04-29T11:22:00.000+08:00

I'm at a lost nw...
I shan't bottle things up...
Spilling all out will make mi feel much betta,i tink...
At least, 4 nw....
I'm lost without u...
Missing u by the day...
Looking out 4 u everyday...
Bt, all i could do is to see ur face...
Ur smile tt brights up my day...
Neither can i share tis to any1..
Nor tell tis to u...
I wld be ashame if i told u..
LoRD, pls forgive mi...
I'm a sinner...

will not be blogging much le...

2005-04-27T09:09:00.000+08:00

Exams juzz arnd the corner..hav been busi & tired lately, guess coz of slpin late ;wakin up early in thee morning & stuff.....pardon mi 4 not updating my blog...will try my best if i hav da time..yarz? soorrie...take carez, all & bye 4 nw...

my day was satisfyin'...i wld say...

2005-04-24T15:23:00.000+08:00

went club as usual in the morning, coz nw no more tution le [stopped liao]...came back to do my hw and study 4 mon's e,a math test ...although didn't go out...i tink tis day was well spent...coz i managed to do quite a no. of work...bt, still am rushing 4 time everyday...got lotz of revision to do..almost everyday Mr Low[4 the benefit those who r not in opss, he is opss principal..] comes into our class to remind us bout the coming mid yr exams & o's 4 chinese...tink i hav bout only 1 mth ++...argh...okayz..tink there's no use talkin...gta do smthg!!! yarz...tis can b a reminder to all those takin o's tis yr,yarz? kez...slpin soon..tired..gd nit9 everyone...take carez~

my bad wk ending soon, i guess...hopefully..

2005-04-23T16:24:00.000+08:00

Juzz got back abt an hour & a half ago frm church..went 4 cell today after sch...
Enough of those unhealthy stuff to my mind, body & soul...
Wanna be back to my old self...
Don't wanna be affected by whoeva or wadsoeva...[ wanna be cheerful at all times...]
Tink this is thee best way to lead a less miserable & stressful life..
I pray hard tt my wk will end well...
Hopefully the wk end will be fulfilling and enriching...
And that i can start a whole new wk fresh....
For any reason....GoD allowed such a thing to happen [ i don't knw why, am still seeking him]...
I sincerely confess of my sins...
Repent and ask 4 his forgiveness...
As he died 4 us all to take away our sins,pain & sufferings on this earth...
So let's give thks 4 his great mercies... =)
Also wanna thank those close friends of mine 4 their encouragement & cheers...[though some might not see this..but nvm..]
Juzz wanna thank GoD 4 them!

am i not loved???

2005-04-22T08:12:00.000+08:00

Doubting myself...
Never felt so unloved b4...[ where is the love???]
Neither do i want any1 to feel tis way too...
So i'm sending out my love to everyone whom i knw or otherwise...
Let's share da love & not be selfish...
Luv u ppl...U r all special in one way or another!!!
*MuAkzZZ*

in my deepest moment...

2005-04-21T11:48:00.000+08:00

Things got realli realli bad...
Hav nthg much to say...
Lost 4 words....
Did my best to correct myself...& have been practing self control [holding back my tears]...
Guess today's assembly was partly 4 mi...
Reminded mi some impt things [ self esteem & my studies]
Juzz wasn't my day...
Tink I had to learnt smthgs the hard way sometimes...
All i hav to do now is juzz 4get it happened...
And concentrate on studies...
Gotta study 4 test tmr...
Glad to see u today...
Ur smiles juzz cheer me up...=p

i'm down..dut disturb mi...

2005-04-20T09:48:00.000+08:00

Bored & fed up...sad???
Didn't manage to see da match...
Ooh...wadeva...wad's wrong with me???
Juzz nt mi today...any reason 4 being so angry?
I'm nt sure bout it...juzz realli argh!
And bleah in some way...smthg's affecting mi too much...
Never knw how to express myself when i'm dwn...
Guess tis song can express my feelings & juzz calm mi dwn...
Trying hard nt to b mad @ whoeva or wadsoeva...
Lord, pls help mi to hav some self control...
Hanging on tightly...
Feeling sick emotionally rite nw....let mi juzz cry...

had a bad day =(

2005-04-19T11:32:00.000+08:00

had history test today...tink it was bad...didn't write very detailedly,coz did'treally study much as i spent the weekend studyin' 4 physics test bt turned out tt it was not today...haiz...dunt wanna tok abt it...today was a lousy day...firstly, the test...& then feeling super weird & unhappy over some things tt it's betta not to mention...cant express in words how im feeling...juzz beri bleah nw[sigh]..tt's all 4 the day...dunt wanna blog unhaapy stuff...

=)

2005-04-17T16:29:00.000+08:00

went club 4 a swim in da morning ...did my revision 4 physics test tis coming wk, coz no hw 4 tis wk end, yay! though haven finish yet managed to cover some topics...after tt i went church to meet da rest as they were having teens time then...went together with them to rach's sch concert @ mgs auditorium to support her...we cab there coz goin to late liao, we spilt into 2 cabs, we were on the first cab...our cab had eve amy my sis & me...the driver not knwing the road well enough didn't knw how to get to mgs..thk GoD amy roughly knew the route coz her sch arnd there..realised we over-shot, past 7:45pm so was really really late liao...the funny thing was we went round & round da same place coz the taxi driver U turned 3 big rounds...those in thee 2nd cab called..they reached le..during the rounds..the driver joked with us abt similar enconters tt 1 of his passenger [an old man] told him tt he knew the way to get to his destination, ended up @ his hse..hahaha..[ cab was filled with our laughter then, laughing the whole journey]..managed to reach there abt 8:15pm..concert name : Bittersweet Symphony...the concert was pretty good though we missed the first part coz we were LATE..ended arnd 9++...juzz gt home...bathed...wanna slp [ yawn..eyes closing le]..tired after all the laughing [ muahaaha...] NItez, evErYoNE!

purely normal sch dae...

2005-04-16T12:08:00.000+08:00

lyk any other fridaes,had choir...todae conductor sick...not much tt we learnt of todae...ms stella yu aso not beri sure abt da piece...practiced seasons of love...nw practicing 4 coming concert combined with da band in july if i'm nt wrong..i have been struggling to cope with my CCA & studies especially when chinese 'o's coming juzz this may...gta start revising todae...scarificed my cell grp..didnt go..my mum sorta of quite unhappy with how i manage my time coz every fridae kinda reach home quite late in da night...gta do smthg with it in order to do well 4 'o's...haiz...this is one of a kind of burden tt i'm livin' with everyday [time management prob]..sigh [ dunt knw wad to do..tried my best..juz leavin' it to GoD i guess...]...pardon mi if i dunt update my bloggies.. tink gonna waste time no more...gonna do revision le...To all have a great week end ahead!!!

laughter is the best medicine...indeed it is... =P

2005-04-15T11:22:00.000+08:00

today...had chinese test, first 2 periods...it was so-so, not tt difficult as i tot...the compre was okay...hope tt i can do well [hee hees]...had alot of fun & shared alot of laughter during recess...some tongue twister thingy tt we were crazy over....during lessons in class sat with xinyi coz deon was absent, esther,yan ming she & I were laughing over some super lame jokes we created,today super high sia...a best day of da wk so far! After sch went straight 4 my dental appt...another 2 more visits can take out braces le...yeah!!! yarz, stop here 4 nw liao...gonna do my hw...wanna catcha more slp tonite too...cya ppl....loads of luV to evERYONE!!!

long day....

2005-04-15T11:08:00.000+08:00

blogging 4 ytrd [13/4]...slept early after i studied for chinese test,as i was tired out...had chinese oral exam....it went pretty well...had luo lao shi as my examiner...she was rather friendly....it looked lyk we had a nv ending conversation...she was more lyk a counsellor...hehe..the topic 4 da conversation was easy 4 me as i knew wad to talk abt...though i may not get very gd marks, as i hav quite a no. of mistakes at the reading section...i learnt alot frm it...had choir after oral...ended quite late...tt's all 4 tt day...=)